all my instincts were completely off
i passed!!
and with a B minus
not so bad for someone who expected to fail.
now every promise i made two/three posts ago i need to keep
1. lose weight!
2. study constantly and competently
and thats all i have to do.these two things. and i will do it. i don't really love what i'm doing, but since i'm stuck in it, i have to complete it. and thats what i'll do.
Friday, July 10, 2009
Thursday, July 9, 2009
D-DAY
this is it.
its 2pm malaysian time
results will be out in an hour
i can only hope for the best
but i have this horrible sinking feeling
i dont think i've made it this time
oh snap.
its 2pm malaysian time
results will be out in an hour
i can only hope for the best
but i have this horrible sinking feeling
i dont think i've made it this time
oh snap.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
i lied
remember when i said i was done worrying?guess what...yeah thats right..i LIED.
who am i kidding?i've been having nasty moments the whole week wondering if i've passed or not.lets be completely honest here. i've done some calculations, not very accurate ones, lower than i think i'll get and guess what?i've FAILED!!!!FUCK am i in SO MUCH TROUBLE!!!!!and to be honest the papers were actually really fair this time. i can't believe i'm going to fail... AGAIN.why does this always happen to meeeeeee?????
because i don't study enough.its true. i can lie till i'm blue in the face to my parents, and my friends but i shdn't lie to myself. yes, i don't study enough. i amble along hoping that whatever i do is enough and that it'll come out. but its not, and it won't.
FUCK
i'm so tired of this
if by some miracle i pass, which i will find out the day after tomorrow, i promise never to get to this point again. i'm going to study, CONTINOUSLY. i'm going to be so prepared that i will be able to answer anything and not have to crap my answers, like i've done so far.i NEED to do well. this is going to stop. no more procrastinating, no more lying and most of all NO MORE YOUTUBE so close to the exams. i hate youtube.
and my parents!!!God my dad's going to bring up every single time he's caught me on the laptop,NOT STUDYING, and bring it up again when i fail.FUCK i HATE when that happens.my mum's going to be soooooooo DISSAPOINTED!!!!!!!!!
gaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LET ME PASS!!!!PLEEEAAAAAASEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!
ps:i apologize for the profanity in this post, i usually don't swear at all...but these are trying times.
who am i kidding?i've been having nasty moments the whole week wondering if i've passed or not.lets be completely honest here. i've done some calculations, not very accurate ones, lower than i think i'll get and guess what?i've FAILED!!!!FUCK am i in SO MUCH TROUBLE!!!!!and to be honest the papers were actually really fair this time. i can't believe i'm going to fail... AGAIN.why does this always happen to meeeeeee?????
because i don't study enough.its true. i can lie till i'm blue in the face to my parents, and my friends but i shdn't lie to myself. yes, i don't study enough. i amble along hoping that whatever i do is enough and that it'll come out. but its not, and it won't.
FUCK
i'm so tired of this
if by some miracle i pass, which i will find out the day after tomorrow, i promise never to get to this point again. i'm going to study, CONTINOUSLY. i'm going to be so prepared that i will be able to answer anything and not have to crap my answers, like i've done so far.i NEED to do well. this is going to stop. no more procrastinating, no more lying and most of all NO MORE YOUTUBE so close to the exams. i hate youtube.
and my parents!!!God my dad's going to bring up every single time he's caught me on the laptop,NOT STUDYING, and bring it up again when i fail.FUCK i HATE when that happens.my mum's going to be soooooooo DISSAPOINTED!!!!!!!!!
gaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LET ME PASS!!!!PLEEEAAAAAASEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!
ps:i apologize for the profanity in this post, i usually don't swear at all...but these are trying times.
Friday, July 3, 2009
Exams are over...hallelujah!!
urgh...completely screwed up my last station in my clinical skills examination on thursday...why?the last thing i had to do before finishing this Godawful paper and i blew it. oh well...things happen...i'm hoping i pass.i'm done worrying.i'm going to enjoy my week break.
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